Black Beauty Diaries

Monday, December 7, 2015

Empty Stir Poem

There’s an empty stir inside of me. I don’t know who I am or what purpose is clearly driven in me. I tune into my conscious side only outside there is a miserable cry that I somehow can’t deny.

Where do I go with this gut feel ? Even if I know the challenge is to know this is an illusion calling everything unreal.
Only it feels real. Is there a medication prescription that I can afford to help me heal?
Maybe I would unlearn quietly how to deal.
My soul that is, when I do everything in my power to handle my biz. I’ve taken chances for different circumstances loved and lived to all these earthly romances.
Only I don’t feel fulfilled, my spirit illed and taken for granted.
Granted realizing that grasping the notion to inner stand it, doesn’t really mean that I planned it.
Merely a stardust creation, if pain is unheavenly then who and where did I come from?
Was I denied access from my sons for the spiritual war that has begun?
Some days are heavier than others…
When I think about my sisters ,  father, brothers, and mother  
How will I serve the world with a pure heart and no troubles?
The one that gets to endure, show and prove, fight with a strength even when it comes to my lovers.
Trampled and tried resilience still in my eyes even when my pain makes me turn around and say goodbye.
There’s an empty stir inside of me or can you not see?
Timelines in life bring out my hermetic chemistry.
Even my name has a definite certainty to it’s own history.
As I balance myself through what we call a matrix of reality
I asked my Divine Creator to fill me with a purpose unconditionally.

Written By: Regina Natasha Ross

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Label Love or Fabled Thug.

"Label" in looking up the noun I discovered the phrase extended to an "intellectual movement" ownership,destination, and of course a material marked or inscribed. In today's blog I want to discuss the love of the label when it comes to a man's interest in a woman. Will he really notice those are Prada's labels way more than me, my girlfriend, or any other woman? Should this "beauty" subject be up for discussion in your "manly" world? Are you looking for an intellectual; representation of your "black love" maybe you turned "Fabled" Thug? A "fabled" thing has no real existence. How often do we come into playing the "program" when we should be the "programmer". We just call them "label whores" but what is it to a man covered in pride but shame at the same time? I really wanna know are you looking into the woman who has a label stamp vs. something of  intellectual destination maybe not in "fashion" and even if it is in which direction did you take the "ownership"? You can have "ownership or leadership" In that intellectual destination one is greater than the other.  My girlfriend and I personally experienced a man trying to holla at our "Prada shoes" more than us in a bar....Did we lose our men to these "material possessions" or are you proud to be possessed by materialism?  Does that make me less of a Goddess in your eyes because I don't let these things "own" me?  or possess me as you would like to because you bought them and thought it was more pricey than me. Never that. In my opinion I think it's crazy how people let things control them. You can be "MORE" than just a labeled "piece" by being true and confident in your own "God" given gift. Be a "creator" of your own shit. For our "OWN" people and stop screwing around! Knock it Off... Pay homage to our ancestors, this blood runs deep of melanin if you can't respect you don't respect the beginning of time! Let's get way past the labels and talk about our communities and why we aren't supporting causes for our own resources and building black business to structure a system that protect our families, single parents, African youth and elderly society. There's so much going on and more questions than answers, let us build on solutions with action invested into focusing on a greater picture. Purposeful for Intellectual things and destinations for all of our generations to come. In all honesty there needs to be more grants and scholarship programs to deprogram the systematic cycle embedded in many of our African his-tory dealings and militant training of who you are. This idolizing and conditioning you is a image to follow or career to maintain that you haven't even taken "ownership" of. In closing I would never allow my intellectual destination to be drawn out into another's path or light that doesn't glorify ME. The I AM is bigger than that....better believe! I made a vow that "my soul don't belong to them clothes", labels and shady foes. I don't know about anybody else but the Goddesses I know, are looking for a spiritual balance, a vibration God given from a African King. Not the Prada, Louis V. collection or Micheal Kors and Chanel latest fashion looking for you" type man".  We don't really expect that if we are living by righteous pure intentions seeking something deeper seems to have gotten too hard, so you let the labels tell you who you think  people really are these days. Wow.  I'm just gonna leave this right here and hope we are ALL making the righteous decisions when intellect is involved dealing with our own I encourage all my people to do it with spirit and soul in building a strong unity.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Conspiracy To My God Given Gift, A Look At Michael Jackson's Fate!

On July 25, 2009 Michael Jackson's tragic death and murder shocked the world. I have been studying why someone who impacted the world so much had to leave here at such an early age. This blog is to basically break down my philosophy as to why this happened to him along with so many of our other leaders and role models in the black community. While this is still happening to us in so many ways Michael Jackson had enough courage to put on many masks just to show the world that not only can you out smarten your opponent, but you can also accomplish your dreams. The media plays a very sick game on each and every one of us right down to our children. They single us out and choose who the weakest link is with the most gifted talents. Opposition is so crafty that they don't have a soul to channel their demons through so they have to control their pick through those vessels that have been studied and experimented on. We have to remember on different levels, there are different devils. No matter how much material possessions this world has to offer we came in one way and we're leaving one way or another. Just make sure that your stay here isn't in vain and that your time isn't filled with ignorance about other's intentions for your role in THIS life!

The programming doesn't stop there it branches out and the most important thing we need to know is that the object of the game is to influence by the masses and especially gain access to the younger generation. Which is why MJ was so adamant about how important our children's future is and what we need to do in order to stop these evil forces from continuing a poisonous cycle of robbing, stealing, and killing. And it's just what the devil comes in to do spiritually, mentally, and physically if we are not careful to keep our eyes stayed on the MOST HIGH, our Divine CREATOR. 

"They" can't like ME because they can't manipulate me. I've witnessed a testimony so strong that I am still in battle with opposition over the most precious jewels the MOST HIGH could ever give us. It's not just me though I've studied and gained knowledge of the number of mothers, children, Africans, that's being experimented on and effected by this underground slavery and drug testing this very day. See Michael Jackson knew he was a slave and when he realized that he was ACTUALLY the KING OF POP and that he made THEM more than THEY made him, he was ready to take full control of the situation and spill all of the evil deeds the industry had sucked him into since he was just a little child.

Eye know why I spent 9 days in jail for kidnapping my own children, I never gave up any parental rights, I was abused by my children's father who called the authorities (it's on record) meanwhile he's still an abuser with other women and especially our children. The experiment on me was to see if I would fold, lose it all mind and spirit, I knew all was not lost when I started being placed in the paths of other families that were going through this. As I did my research very well I found out this was not only a game, but children were being killed and sacrificed for an even sicker experiment surrounding prescription drugs, sex rings, and racial  Economical Systematic Statistical Abuse (ESSA) . So they wanted me to have a felony, lose my good paying job and test me for "single mom failure" experiment at even giving my children the stability they needed so that I would instill some GREAT SPIRITUAL KNOWLEDGE IN THEM. I'm not crazy and have taken initiative to even prove to these devils I am a fully 100% nurturing mother, never gave them a reason to side with someone who was determined to sabotage my every positive move. I know he doesn't work alone which is why ALLAH has given me the strength and power to call out these Agents and their foul play until MY ancestor MAAT has served up a 100 fold what they've handed out, I will diligently seek truth everyday and expose THEM for what they are. 

The system is ran by a crooked line of money hungry, power of the people controlling, narcissistic psychopaths that are out to get your mind, body, and soul!!! I stand for humanitarianism and will forever be armed with the courage to expose not only what they did to my family, but what they constantly do and have done over the years to break the bond of LOVE and SPIRITUALITY in the black community.  We took initiative to compare our story to LOSING ISAIAH , which is based on a true story... except were NEVER crackheads and we NEVER put our child in a trash can and left them there! This woman got her child back from a white woman and I have to remind you though this was years ago, can you imagine the fight she had to put up with? Well maximize and multiply that by today's stream of coincidences when it comes to breaking and killing the black community by all means necessary. How can the lost LEAD? when MJ woke up he was really tired, but filled with courage. His destiny became a rare form in the ART of WAR against the disagreeable entities that only wanted to destroy, demonize, and distract us all from the truth. 

Keep fighting the GOOD fight, they know they're not going to win so with the same tricks and different strategies we need to use our tools to grasp the concept that GOD will surely make our enemy a foot stool! Many are called and few are chosen.... who is CHOOSING you to do what JOB? and for what purpose are you here for?!


Remembering Michael Jackson's FULL LEGACY is untold but he lives on... because GREAT ART doesn't die. If you're not empowered to fight for your own GOD GIVEN rights remain a programmed label until your vessel is void and known to do nothing but kill, steal, and destroy. The very poison that's been killing our ancestors for ages.

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You can show your support by passing the world along about my humanitarian campaign. (ESSA)"Economical Systematic Statistical Abuse" is happening all over the world to conscious people like me and you everyday. KEEP YOUR FAMILY SAFE AND PROTECT OUR CHILDREN WITH KNOWLEDGE AND INNER-STANDING!!!! SO WE CAN OVER-STAND THIS POLLUTED SYSTEM IN DIGNITY AND RESPECT.  Brainwashing is designed to do numbers on those that they can divide and conquer mother, father, sister, or brother keep your eyes open and shield yourself spiritually to maintain a balance course materialism is just a facade! YOU "EXIST" THEREFORE YOU MATTER SO DECIDE TO MOVE DILIGENTLY THROUGH THIS LIFE!

By: Natasha Blackisis Auset
Respect My Strength

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Am I My Brothers Keeper? I got a name for that Grim Reaper!!!

Fact is there were some of us gone too soon! Did we allow these things to happen? Well, this blog post is strictly for my Afrikan brothers and sisters who may have voices with a pinch of action behind it. These days we are well aware of what's going on and forget that it's not just a swift breeze of hateful acts amongst us. We've been going through this for centuries and it's always blatantly in our face I don't need a degree to tell you my philosophy, in fact it's only a piece of paper that indicates I've wasted a lot of time verifying that this info is free and  I can learn these things on my own rather than have someone unknown to my true nature validate me in it. That same piece of paper can be bent, torn, folded in half, or burnt it doesn't determine my actions upon another human in this world. It also does not determine an individual's spirit in knowledge and conscious behavior from my environment, surrounding me with proof of what is written, the sacrifices my ancestors or I have made to see a just and peaceful world without the boundaries of what color I am, how much money or things I think I may own. Who own's your soul and did the Grim Reaper already steal that away too?   The day you were born your mother and father decided they were going to sign a "birth certificate" to give up ownership over you to someone they personally didn't know right at the hospital they signed you up... But you just had to be "certified"... Did you even know your number was up then?  I wanted to find out if you were your brother's keeper or was someone else keeping your brother from fulfilling a purpose? If we came from the Universe in all it's glory and darkness was the color it all started with why is this cloth changing deity who is the Angel of Death covered in a lynching manner always with a hidden robe on, or suit, uniform whatever you wanna call it, there's layers to hide behind a title of destruction while boldly holding onto your "scythe" ready for an vengeful reaping act upon Egypt's (Afrika's) firstborn till this very day!!! 

Now I'm going to tell you about Anpu- also known as Anubis this name derived from the Greek terms. The guardian and protector of the dead whom also by Egyptian proof and artifacts was a "royal child" who laid to rest souls with the assistance of sweet smelling herbs and plants that would help the pure spirits move into paradise. I'm giving you the description of the death deities because when our people are being killed in vain we aren't even being honored in death in accordance to peace and balance our ancestors assisted us with. Keep in mind protection WAS in place now it is all the way out of the picture because they feel it's a crime to protect our own. We are living in a brutal, cold, hateful, and jealous era where our bloodline is at risk of murder, outbreak, experiments, extreme mind altering programming, and brainwashing.  We've forgotten our power and we allow the caped skeletal who hides behind a skull and bones image trying to  create severe damage to sever all ties to our true nature. Be more than a number for resources, become the UNIVERSAL act of Anubis protecting the tomb while putting fear in those who think they can disturb the rebirth of an undying untouchable and consuming kingdom of TRUE GOD'S AND GODDESSES!

Now we not even being laid to rest like Kings and Queens... Slain dogs get more respect it seems!

                                                            KNOW THYSELF 

Mama BabyDaddy Epidemic!

Yes, indeed my friends it's been a while but in this blog I feel a strong connection to this title because it's all so surreal. There is a epidemic beating us down to the system's flaw and making us enemies amongst each other, this is in relation to taking responsibility of the decisions we've made in the past and present. Our partners we've chose to deal with and created out of the situation being the most precious gifts whom are pure and born of innocence and genuine love. Brought forth into this world full of chaos only to experience it with the beings whom they came through. The thing about this life is we never know what we are getting served up until the shit hits the fan, disagreements may happen and certain parties fail to comply to the program that the child was created out of, not by your doing but by Divine power. If you forget your job and place in training that being makes it obvious that we are just being,  in human "being"... it is time to get outside of "human being", and do what it is to "human nature" that is to NURTURE. I noticed that a lot of people are worried about child support when it comes to this systems way of taking care of your responsibilities, the distraction is not being focused on the matter at hand and that's building from the moment you decided there was going to be another spirit on this earth with your bloodline. The money isn't the issue the real problem lies where we don't consider the fact this interaction with another person was considerably your choice and the consequences are the product of what you decide to make out of the situation. I've made up in my mind that to build an empire with the partnership is much more than "child support" it's teaching your seeds and watering them with the so called mistakes which in fact are already written for them to be! Sometimes this "Mama Babydaddy" won't see eye to eye but if we can grasp the concept of building a stronger foundation in business terms rather than "child support" governed by the "appointed officials" when your number comes up you will be better off sitting at a round table discussing these issues with the very person you procreated with. The idea is to notice a bigger picture for the sake of killing this concept of baby mama, baby daddy drama. It's no longer a problem it's an epidemic in the black community especially when it divides us conquering by the numbers if you don't "pay" your child support! Time and investment is very important this day and age, if we put as much as time into making a plan to over turn what consistently holds us back from creating our own businesses, schools, banks, and justice systems to manage the wrongs that have been done to hold us back maybe we can vision our children doing a much better job than we have when it comes to allowing "others" to take control over OUR situations at hand. We are responsible for love and light, there's hope instilling knowledge and wisdom to nurture our seeds into this world. When it's priceless you don't look at the tag you just DO IT, the blame game is the shame game, why not just take back what we fear to do. Take back what is rightfully yours and see that it is a game you much need to win even down to your bloodline. Notice, those who stick together no matter what seem to move in numbers and have the will to go to any extent to maintain their EMPIRE. 
 Unfortunately, our numbers are low and statistics are high we are failing miserably because we can't get past the "child support" concept. We need to teach them that child support is teaching our children to love, come together in unity, create, and be free to discover this world in such a way black Afrikan support is UNBREAKABLE. We are suppressed by our own neglectful ignorance and behavior, it weakens our communities, the justice system shits on us and our children because they have not an ounce of faith in what we do or say. We are seriously downgrading our own NETWORTH and it hurts our seeds. We focus too much on "other's" solving our problems when we were placed here to use our own intelligent and conscious minds to elevate and advance our OWN kind "THEY" DO. This isn't a selfish movement this is a selfless revolutionary ACT. So, blame no one but yourselves the change starts with you and if mama babydaddy don't want to comply still evolve. I'd rather we consider starting an organization of mama babydaddy entrepreneurship, we need to work through our issues for the sake of our seeds even  if it takes counseling amongst ourselves and own kind. Nothing beats coming together at a round table to discuss our issues, visions, and creating a real foundation for the sake of saving ourselves. Too many brothers in jail, too many sisters going through the struggle and losing themselves to the systems business of keeping us in a cycle, this has to stop immediately! so WE can readjust and get OUR numbers UP!  I'm all for us powering up and doing what we need to do to make a major come back, Lord knows these slashes on our backs aren't physical anymore but more so spiritual and our children are experiencing the lack of nurturing in knowledge and wisdom we need to give them in spite of our disagreements and shortcomings financially or physically. To experience how strong you are can be the most fulfilling and enlightening thing you can allow yourself to feel and your children see it because you become fearless in a world that wants you to be consumed by fear and doubt! I challenge anyone reading this to start a chain reaction, use your PHYSICS to the HIGHEST POWER.... KNOW THYSELF IT'S IN YOUR DNA!!!!

Sister to Sister, Brother to Brother Black Child Of GOD your LIVES MATTER!!!